After having some bore to death and stiff routines, I finally had the nerve to write again here. Well, nothing had really shaken me off like a bad nightmare would, and nothing really good ensued in my life these past days.


“A leaf in its fatality falls and touches the ground

Now- I’m falling and I don’t want to be like a leaf

Not because I’m afraid of hitting the ground-

But because leaves, after falling

Can never go back to where they came from.”



I saw this written in red ink in one of my HS notebooks and it makes me cringe every time I remember I once wrote this. ha-ha. Moot point, I guess… It’s not always like that, is it?


Well. It’s just now that I can truly say that I’m trilled for college. Actually, I made a to-do-list for the first semester.


1. Create or bond an acoustic band for freshies (since we are not allowed to join any university-acknowledged organizations yet)

2. Study hard or harder, if necessary (because my sister betted our GWAs for honor’s list versus dean’s list)

3. Collect shoes. (allowance eater!)

4. Eat a lot! (because I really don’t want to get sick there and mom would go like overreacting)

5. Catch enough Zzzz’s (since I’m still a freshie and I suppose when I get to upperclasses soon, I can’t sleep sufficiently anymore)

6. Enjoy! Enjoy! Enjoy! (as long as it won’t spoil my academic feats)


*crossed fingers*


Well what do you think? I guess I’m on the bridge of my metamorphosis right now… more like tossed in the point of no return instead. What else could there be behind those dreams? What more will I have to expect?


Uncertainties bring enough frustrations to the heart. Frustrations have once knocked me off but I won’t let it anymore- for all they cared.


jue and I. Some time in Kulambog adventure. Missed it already.



See you soon.

-JL